Thanks Caz, I knew you would say what was needed to help me out, so I am really happy now that you had a good holiday. I am not much of a blogger?, which I feel this had become, (smile) can't even get that right, even with skinnier fingers.
It has been a difficult session with periods of real downside, this chemo certainly packs a punch, and because of this I know that something is happening inside, not a new experience for me, but different. The description of feeling like being hit by a truck could be a good analogy, although I don't have experience of that, thankfully.
My physical and mental state has been mixed, and may have been affected by the very warm, even hot conditions, 27 - 29°c here in the SE. Perhaps this is a surprise to many that read this, but back when the original chemo started in January, on the only snowy day we had, the medical team did give me a warning then of the effect temperature has, more cold than hot, but still an important factor.
From the depths of a few days ago, I can only describe yesterday as being one of the few really happy days I have experienced in the best part of a year. I have made some changes though, and although I still visit the cafe, I have started to cook for myself again. I need something fresh, that fast food cannot cater for, but also for the stimulus, and the mental need to make choices as to what to eat.
The extra choice will also help me to gain(hopefully) body weight. I reported some weight gain a few days ago, at the time of 4.5k, and I am determined that I will be able to manage a total of 10k by Monday.
Macmillan have been good, and I have had a visit from them since you went away, which is part reason why I adopted this new outlook. They pointed out that things had become stale, and needed upgrading, and I have taken this on board, in a big way. They have also told me things to help with finance which is ongoing.
Although a little better, I still am having problems with walking, but hopefully this will improve with time. Their Doctor has been instrumental in the major changes to my medical needs, and keeps contact by letter, and the odd phone call. I feel now that if anyone can get me though this, it will be him. Why, oh why, was he not around for me weeks ago? A failure from the Guy's consultants perhaps. Maybe I am being rather critical here, because the team have done what they think best, in the timing of the treatment, chemo, stent etc., but this doc probably has more experience in the field than most of the rest put together. As a group, we all have played a part, but like with the food, his import has done more in a few weeks, which make my efforts look puny. False hope?, I don't think so.
Have a good day Caz, and the gang. I have been having a few computer issues, particularly with TWO for some reason, but at least it's still working.