Pat, no apology necessary, to be honest opening the thread was the furthest thing on my mind. Caz, you are always my rock, the caring, encouragement, and straight forward talking is invaluable. As I exist here in an almost vegetative state, I find it very hard to justify that the end game is worth it. The fighting is hard, the suffering is hard, just existing is hard, but to have any chance, it has to be done. Yes, I do have some better days, but they seem to be less and less frequent.
I have just had a call from the house manager to inform me that I am able to go ahead and choose a cat, although I may leave it for a few days in the hope that I will be in a better frame of mind. I would need to buy a cat basket, a litter tray, litter etc, and i don't feel capable of this right now, but it will be something to focus on.
Physically, apart from the virtual loss of use of my left hand, I am in reasonable shape, but mentally I am shot to pieces. This will be the hardest thing to get back I feel, but as always I will fight.
Please everyone, bear with me whilst I go through this transition, it may take a while.
Originally Posted by: Dougie